Saturday, May 31, 2008 11:55 PM
Result is out
Finally she msged me....In the end i still failed.....
Finding myself such a failure...
For a gal, dropping a tear of sorrow is pretty common
For a guy, they will try not to even if they wanted to..
For me, i can't control it after getting the result...
yet got to pretend its nth to me...
Well at least i hav tried my best and shall have no regret..
Things will never be the same anymore...
Crying doesn't really solve anything and i know it..
But sumtimes it can't really be helped..
Feeling veri painful now...
Yet nth can stop tis painful feeling..
Hope to find another i liked...to get rid of tis painful feeling..
But at the meantime, still can't forget her..
Even though i failed, i still hope she is happy..
Cuz whatever the result is
HER HAPPINESS IS ALL IT MATTERS...
Lets hope there will be no more tear rolling down from my eyes..
although i can't control it, i will try not to show it..
In fact, tis might be the last time i dare to take this kind of test again..
The result can be veri sweet if u pass...but extremely painful when u fail...
I rather not hav any sweet feeling anymore
I am afraid i can't take anymore pain...I might juz collapse
I wanna forget her...yet i can't..
Is this some kind of joke...which hurts someone till they can't take it..
Anyway..let everything be my fault...Shouldn't hav let anyone know it in the first place..
Being trying to numb myself playing games after getting the result...
yet games seems to be useless now... Sometimes as i play till half, tears might juz roll down and all i can do is to keep it to myself..
Saying it all out now makes me feel better a little yet the little doesn't really helps...
But juz to let her know if she is reading my blog...I will always be there for her if she needs it....
