Finally she msged me....In the end i still failed.....

Finding myself such a failure...

For a gal, dropping a tear of sorrow is pretty common
For a guy, they will try not to even if they wanted to..

For me, i can't control it after getting the result...
yet got to pretend its nth to me...

Well at least i hav tried my best and shall have no regret..
Things will never be the same anymore...

Crying doesn't really solve anything and i know it..
But sumtimes it can't really be helped..

Feeling veri painful now...
Yet nth can stop tis painful feeling..

Hope to find another i liked...to get rid of tis painful feeling..
But at the meantime, still can't forget her..

Even though i failed, i still hope she is happy..
Cuz whatever the result is
HER HAPPINESS IS ALL IT MATTERS...

Lets hope there will be no more tear rolling down from my eyes..
although i can't control it, i will try not to show it..

In fact, tis might be the last time i dare to take this kind of test again..
The result can be veri sweet if u pass...but extremely painful when u fail...

I rather not hav any sweet feeling anymore
I am afraid i can't take anymore pain...I might juz collapse

I wanna forget her...yet i can't..
Is this some kind of joke...which hurts someone till they can't take it..

Anyway..let everything be my fault...Shouldn't hav let anyone know it in the first place..

Being trying to numb myself playing games after getting the result...
yet games seems to be useless now... Sometimes as i play till half, tears might juz roll down and all i can do is to keep it to myself..

Saying it all out now makes me feel better a little yet the little doesn't really helps...

But juz to let her know if she is reading my blog...I will always be there for her if she needs it....


It was onli till now that i know somethings can't be said out...
Something will juz not be the same anymore..
Esp when no answer is given to me..
It is a suffering to get hanged around a question that had been ask yet without answer...

Is a answer really so hard to be given....juz a ****** or ******

Since this is the case should i still hold on to it?

Well onli five person knows about it... including the person with the answer as well...

But as long as that person is happy everything doesn't matter...Really...

Too much secret that can't be told..and once leaked, the whole situation will change..affecting the friendship u originally haf... Y did i even allow it to leak..


OK!!

I'm getting headache because of this question..
It's getting serious for me..
this question is whirling around my head..
what should i do ??
can u tell mi what should i do now??
I'm so confused as if like there is no life and fun for me..
I want to stop this headache and this unquestionable question..
Is there professional to help mi??
I think nobody can help mi to answer this question..
i shall let TIME to help to decide..


All day long yesterday...I was juz thinking of one question...Should i tell her or should i not... thinking it for a long time ..day and night....Modem was overheated...can't connect to internet till i get a new modem...Sianzation


Haiz..short update abt ytd night...Guess wat time i reached home from sch =.=

9PM+ !!

Attended a stupid workshop which lasted 4 hours...I dunno its till 7.30pm..
Tot till 5.30-6pm...

Ate dinner alone...so lonely T_T

Played dota with derick using PA...OWNAGE!

After thinking of my friend interest...i find that she can open a bridal shop haha..(random)

Ok shall study for cognitive UT now...

Total Sianzation...

Decision Making time...Shall i tell her or shall i not?







erm.. what should i write for this today ?? we had computing & math lesson..
this lesson was very slacky and we still had time to play Warcraft and CS..
I think this is the only lesson we can be so slack.. i had added 1 new picture in that was edited by my classmate..
she had nothing to do so she take the advantage to edit the picture using the free time..
this picture belonged to her..
i admit that i like this picture very much..Looks so much like fairytale to me LOL =)
this picture can let me think of someone i like.............
Hope to walk the path with her hand in hand..=P

That all for today !! Bye people..

Miss U alwayx...if u noe who u r =)


Well well...change to the original blogskin..cuz its kinda screwed... now everything is back =)
___________________________________________________________________
Well gonna start re-blogging...
Changed my skin and all my previous ..blog was gone
Nvm juz started not long ago..doesn't make much different..

My gan mei started holiday ler...yet i got 1 more wks to go...
So tired thinking of someone..yet knowing that she is happi makes me
feel happy for her too...

Suddenly was thinking of my primary sch buddy...Shawn Yeo..

I wonder how tmr lesson will be....Computering...well my forte again yet
THE TEACHER IS GIVING ME 'B' NOWADAYS!!
Haiz...i got do work giv me 'B' soooo sad T_T

Ok i shall go for 1-2 round of Dota den slp
Nite nite everione =)


--23/05/08--

Had science module...so hard lor...scienitific theory
The whole class was like ...so siann..zzz
In the end i think onli 5 ppl got do the worksheet =.=
Actually wanna Pon tht class de...but...
Promise and pity tht teacher haha..=)

Had Mermaid for lunch...a.k.a fish fillet ( very big de )
BLOATED!

Oh ya...after sch i chiong home cuz going out wif friends..haha
Go tampines for LAN gaming =.= 3 matches i think...DOTA

When home wif yong xuan...den change bus...
Actually wanna take 61 de... but tht fking bus didnt stop!!!!!
Waste my time waiting for another bus...63 haiz..

After tht continue gaming at home lol till 4+ am...I SIAO HOR XP

--24/05/08--

Help my dad the most of the time...
Reach home at 5pm i think..

Den go down buy thing and u know wat i saw...

2 gang of small kids quarreling .... so stupid of them..
Act 'ah beng'... scold all the 三字经 haha.. den almost fight..
I sit there watch show stare at them...den got 1 boy walk to me..
and he say
.
.
.
.
"Erm u their friend arh"
I say "No, y?"
he reply " My friend scare u their friend help them beat us"
=.=
I look so firece and violent meh--- __ him...

But in the end ...no show watch..waste my time they dun dare fight haiz

When home to dota after tht..haiz gonna let lappy rest ler..
K i stop here--Happi Alwaysx


Okok Blog time... Srry arh slack for a 1-2 days...
Well, shall i say wat i did yesterday?? ---> NO

Cuz too boring...same old thing...Sch-->Home-->Slp

22/05/08
When sch today in an ultra happi mood haha. Guess wat time i wake up =P
05:55am LOL! Set the wrong time for alarm.. Woke up can't go to slp liao
Xue hao didnt go sch today T_T
Most of the ppl in the class are 'addicted' to CounterStrike (CS) today haha

Challenge my Score with Daryl today... he got 62 kills 13 death.. Gonna admit he quite good haha
Me got 70 kills 13 death.. Artic Rocks LOL

Dam happi today and hav much mood to do my work =)
Veri participative and co-operative
Well rarely see me so diligent de hor...XP

When home with serena and jen today...becuz kunda and yong soon PS me T_T
Overall today is 1 of my top 10 most happiest day in RP haha'

But sum1 lied to me again!!
She told me she will NOT miss ani lesson again yet... OMG cant see her in class..
Still ask me to help her download things den pass to her..NVM i not petty =)


Next week got UT again so SIAN!

Tmr is Science..Heard from the other classes it is gonna be hard!
Nvm got me and Yong Soon All problem = No problem (I hope SO...)

OKOK i go slp ler nite nite to all those reading my blog =)

Miss u alwayx...If u noe who u r =)



9am to 5.30pm....was at sch doing tht BrainCell killing Problem statment...
Lucky not totally dead if not i m going to be a total retard..=.=

After i went home i go do stupid thing....=X
CAnnot say wat i do..dam ps de haha

And i do 1 thing today which i havent done a long time....talk on phone for 1hr and 1 min lol!
Well tht call was from sum1 i dunnoo...but called me cuz we in the same dota match..=)
Communicating this way is faster haha (Lucky free incoming call)
if not bill sure explode..

okok hav Culture-UT tmr...must go slp...tmr go sch early and study..

nite nite =)

Miss U always...If u noe who u r =D


Morning Blog!

Ok was cracking my brain now to think of some stupid problem
"Do we shape the buildings, or do the buildings shape us"
WTF do u think about this question...help!!!

Can't find anithing about it so come and do a morning blog...
All i can find is Stupid unrelated thingy...haiz..

75% BRAIN CELL DEAD........haha

Okok shall stop here teacher coming over leh..
HATE TIS LESSON..


Ok quite late liao...but i will juz do a quick post =.=

Well...sum1 lied to me AGAIN...about 1 wks ler or LONGER!

Nth special today haha...went to parkway to look for my buddy...=)
Had KFC there..tried the new Zinger (Fishy)
Not bad..wouldnt regret trying it..den we slack at BORDERS...
Reading 'Semi-Dirty' joke book =.=
When home at around....5.30pm..

Once i reach home...my parent doing 'SPRING' cleaning...nth to do isit!
den due to some personal reason...Quarrel with Father ...Dam BU SHUANG!!!

Hide at my own corner play dota till now...and my skills are BACK!
Owning in all 3 matchs =)

Ok shall slp liao...eye closing....
Miss u alwayx...If u noe who u r =)






Mood veri strange today...early in the morning, veri happi =D...
Having Computing and maths... quite easy haha...maybe cuzz thts my forte..=P

But actually i didnt do a lot of things...mostly done by kunda and yong soon...
me and tee chin slacker =)

Unofficially changed our own grp haha...all the computing experts in my grp lol soooo IMBA
Wanna go to the cafe in the library to play pool... but i think heaven not on our side...the coin cant be inserted... tht was so __ up ..but nvm went back to class

Hazwan was projecting 'TRANSFORMER' using his laptop... I failed to watch it last time so...took this chance to watch it =D

Left the class quite early today...about 4pm...the earliest grp to leave the class..
Yet cant go home yet...gonna attend an IG meeting..

During tht IG meeting, my mood start to change...become Emo + Anti-social...
Lucky got my Gan mei and Shirley chat with me in msn to kill my boredom...

The powerpoint slides of the meeting is soooo confusing...maybe becuz i stupid lor...
Dun understand anything about the 'RULES OF 72 AND 115' for investment...

Feel so slpy in the MRT and bus on my way home...but no seat...stand all the way ..while feeling sleepy... MUST GET A DRIVING LICENSE AND A CAR!!!

OK shall stop here...veri tired...I try get out of EMO mode first..

Oya...wish my friend GET WELL SOON... Down with flu for so many days...可怜可怜。


A happy day is always my favourite...
Well..today is the day..
Hope that person knows i thinking of her..

Today went to school Dam early...8am..but dam tired..
Had my UT for computing..overall it was a piece of cake haha..
Juz by listening to songs and looking at a person makes my day.

OkOk back to proper blogging...
Our Faci changed again for science....
Todays topic is about ..ermmm...forgotten wait arhhh
Heat capacity...yeah heat capacity...
Topic was quite ok la..better den last week =.=

Should have apply for copyright..
so many of our slides got copied haha..by nvm la

Today although happi but feel slacky..dun wANNA do ani work..
BUT tht yong soon forced me to do...keep pestering me..sian..
must entertain him..

Perfect lesson summore...no question shooting haha
everyone become allies ...

Kunda today do 1 man show seh...solo the whole powerpoint..
feel so unfair for him..

Anyway...gonna try mermaid meal tmr haha saw yong soon eating it..so nice liddat..

Anyway...hope u all find this a long post...coz always complain i post veri short...
But seriously srry la... nid to have things to blog den can post long long ma..

We even question the 6th Presentation haha..

So sian...done everything in sch...den went home lor haha so lame where else to go rite
But not alone tis time..=D got Yong Soon, Kunda, jen and chau wei accompany..so glad to have friend like them =D

Ok la shall stop here nid to go eat dinner ...or rest =D
1 more things to my friend...dun care about all those rumour la...




Sian no mood to blog...mind is totally sumwhere else thinking of sum1 else..


Hello everyone..I am back for more blogging haha =D
Change of group today...but i kind of like the group today haha cuz 1st time same group with Kunda.. disturb each other..but 1 bad thing all the ppl in my grp knows how to talk veri well but..non of us knows how to do powerpoint slides...Anyway..The Faci for tis module didnt come
too... WTF is all the FACI for tis week so BUSY...sooo i Pon sch halfway today lor..

The whole class left...onli 4 Guai kia stay haha... Me and (cannot say name without permission) went to causeway point to have lunch den go home... take MRT alone so boring..

My parent mahjong session again...slacking at home is forever so nice and cosy... shall blog again later =D


Finally...Reached home.. so tired yet dun wanna sleep haha today too high to get emo =)
Because i am 90% positive that a person is no longer angry with me haha .
Went for a talk after sch with Yong Soon....4.30pm to 6pm...tio scam la...tot until 5.30pm..
The talk was dammmmm boringgg....... Fell aslp several times in the talk haha lucky Yong Soon wakes me up if not will be soooo pai seh cuz sitting in the 3RD row leh... so near zz
Anyway...got to walk to interchange alone...Yong Soon rush off to meet someone..And guess who i met?? ====> JOJO lol... When she was crossing the traffic light, saw 2 pervertic guy (Srry cant say wat they was looking at or doing without permission) =X..
JOJO took the next MRT which arrive with her friend but i gonna wait for the other MRT becuz its full.... sian lor..
Same for the bus...Stood for about 1hr 30min can u BELIEVE IT!!
NVM brain too tired to think of anithing more to write...

Thanks for forgiving
Ur forgivness made me happi for the whole day


Finally got time to post another post...
Faci didnt come today...change to another faci..well she like to joke quite much
When to W6 canteen for breakfast with Yong Soon and Kunda...Had nasi lemak and Honeydew juice...Doing powerpoint slides now..dunno wat to do..
JoJo came over to my grp well....gonna get shoot...TONS of QUESTION..
Anyway till now i still not in EMO mode yet and thats a good thing.. =)
Shall continue later..


Ha..no nid to say anithing la...daily routine..wake up till reach sch...Boring life boring stories...
Will update more things later .... UT starting soon got to stop here =)


Woke up at 6am+ tis morning...as usual.. took bus to sch and haha meet with Shakilla..She talked on phone all the way...Reach the lift..Guess who i Saw..KUNDA haha..Went class together..
Class was so boring... 1 Grp normally haf 4 to 5 ppl and our grp onli hav 3... the Faci doesn't even care...WTF..
But nvm i still changed to Kunda grp in the end..Cuz 1 gal from my grp left (not feeling well)..
Left 2 person ...wat to do except change grp.. Hate today's topic..Culture........
Tried to cultivate my interest for it but seems too hard..
Anyway..still manage to tahan till the end of the day...And i enjoy being bad guy for today...keep asking question haha (Dun Revenge Pls)

Well today first time blogging sia..feel so unfamiliar....blogging is like total stranger to me..

But over all was Emo for 80% of the day...As for the reason..can't be told...

Might consider adding another post later...but at the meantime let me juz make friend with this blog first haha..

I’m just who I am, who I suppose to be.
bKs a.k.a Blank.
I am just typical bad guy.
That came to this world on the 10th of october 1990
which is around 20yrs ago

If you like me, tell me.
If you don’t, let me go.

This is my way, and that is your way.
Go somewhere over the rainbow,
And don’t let me see you forever again.





Simply things I want.


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